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by laurenalder

Novel Excerpt: From Chapter 26 of “The Codex of Desire”

The flu thing is still kicking me flat, so today I’ll be taking it easy and posting an excerpt from my recently published novel, “The Codex of Desire”. In Chapter 26, the Most Potent Chieftess Ev’ora has “invited” the captive warrior Tir’at to a private supper in her stronghold — and Tir’at, inflamed with love for another female and goaded beyond endurance by Ev’ora’s sly attempts to seduce him, has leaped to his feet and started strutting before her, crowing his defiance…

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Ev’ora gazed at him without the slightest shift of a feather or the tiniest flicker of her inner eyelids. His rage crashed against her — and as a wave on the Sea when it strikes a rocky outcrop of the shore, rebounded upon itself and was redoubled. Another crow shrieked from his throat, this time beyond words — in a surge of inarticulate savagery he clenched his fists hard and thrust out both arms out in arcs that swept every dish in front of him off the table. Bowls flew; oil lamps fell and went out; food spilled and splattered; the cups of wine tumbled to the floor and disgorged their expensive contents amidst the general ruin. In her corner, the Lowest cowered to the wall and emitted a tiny squeak of terror — beyond the leather curtain, footfalls came running —

— but none entered the dimmed chamber, lit now by a single lamp mounted on the wall beside the entry arch. As the bowls rolled to a slow stop on the food-strewn floor Ev’ora continued to gaze at Tir’at as though she were carved of stone, or ivory, or ice. Glaring into her eyes, seeing only depths as inscrutable as bowls full of bright blood, Tir’at thrust his head forward and snapped his jaws, sharp teeth nearly fastening on the tip of her muzzle —

— but she neither drew back nor lunged forward to join battle with him. She merely gazed, and when he recoiled with another maddened cry, then turned wildly in the direction of the leather curtain as if to flee only to begin strutting back and forth before the table, every muscle in his body wound taut as lock-jaw, every nerve hissing and sizzling with white-hot adrenaline… she gazed yet, as if he were a particularly interesting beetle presented for her entertainment, scuttling back and forth inside a long narrow box.

His brain was a-boil, his vision a haze of reds and yellows edged with pulsing white — in his breast, his heart hammered like a frantic bird trying to beat its way out of a cage. As he strutted each sharp step jarred it sorely, until its cries pounded into his throat and hissed free between his bared gleaming teeth: “Never! Never! Never for you! Never! Never! Never — for you!” — interspersed with shrill random crowing, his neck arched sharply back between his shoulder blades, his wings flaring and beating a staccato war-dance…

… and still Ev’ora watched him in silence. Each fierce step she watched, each harsh word and wild vocalization she heard, each scent of animal fury she doubtless breathed… until all his searing energy exhausted itself in a rush. His crowing died mid-breath, and he stopped in his tracks to stand facing the windows, swaying on his feet, the heat draining from his flesh to leave him cold and dazed and shaking, every feather a-quiver with the enervating aftermath of utterly unaccustomed fury. He stood mute, staring at the darkness beyond the lattices — when, oh when had it gotten so dark? — and he only saw the Lowest when she quivered there against the wall, backed into her corner, her wide unblinking grey eyes fixed upon him, catching a muddy gleam of what little lamplight there was.

Ev’ora’s voice slid out of the darkness, Exalted still, lithe as a snake across the shadowed table and between Tir’at’s heaving ribs like a blade: “Hast thou exhausted thy subject, Illustrious Guest?”

He opened his mouth. He closed it again. He could not speak — his mind was his own again in an ocean of exhaustion, but words failed him. On his left forearm his vambrace clasped his flesh with dead weight, and he let his arm drop at his side, its pinions trailing in the trodden food staining the floor.

After a long pause, Ev’ora said quietly: “It is well thou hast spoken — not fairly, or truly, but as an infection should be lanced to let out the yellow poison. For surely thou perceive that thou hast proved My very point, to the letter?” Softly her words came in even ranks, marching through his ears into his mind: “Thou art male, and to be male is to be enslaved to the flesh and to the blood. The essential juices which warm the eggs of a female to new life ferment in thy body — and so potent are they, so intoxicating in their nature, that they provoke thy sex to madness if not properly checked, or timely released.”

Tir’at let his head drop too, his chin drooping to nestle against his breast, his eyelids sinking closed. He ached with weariness, so empty in the aftermath of the brush-fire which had raged within him…

“To be male is to be male flesh,” Ev’ora continued in a voice of calm reason, “and male flesh is changeable, irrational, and given to passion of all kinds.”

… but in that emptiness, dancing beyond the haze, he saw a gleam of bright red feathers and of eyes as green as new leaves… a beauty as serene and pure as this voice in his ears was darkly venomous…

Silken as a serpent’s belly in the dust: “Well can I see how weary thou art, Little One, of thy long struggle to be all that they — the perverted teachings of the Sky Emperor — have demanded of thee! Is it not enough?” He heard her rise slowly from her couch, the seductive whisper of feathers gliding against each other. In a moment he would feel her footfalls come round the table, heavy and soft and horrible; in another moment, he would feel her teeth closing — terrible, gentle! — on the back of his curved neck! “Dost thou not see that it is the best of fortunes that have brought thee here, to this safe haven? No more shalt thou run, nor fight, nor strive against thy own kind — here shalt thou be honoured, and valued, and give no more thought to the impossible or the unnatural.” Ah, here it came — the first footfall! The second! Her voice fell to an even lower murmur: “And to her shalt thou be given, a royal gift indeed — once thou hath offered thy duty to Me, and given unto Me new life for the next generation…”

His flesh was dreaming, and in that dream his mind, dazed, had been slowly sinking — until Ev’ora’s last sentence cleaved through his brain like lightning, illuminating patterns gone temporarily dark — and though he felt no less exhausted in body, his mind woke as if from a long sleep to see the precipice yawning at his feet, less than a half-step from falling to his ruin!

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by laurenalder

Novel excerpt: A scene from “Where Darkness Falls” which will NOT appear in the novel…

… because it’s written from the POV of the male main character, Jeremy Anderson, and he is not a POV character in the book itself.

WARNING: Adult content ahoy!

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Jeremy’s eyes snapped open, staring through the darkness at the cheaply stuccoed motel room ceiling over his bed. The bedcovers, securely around his shoulders when he’d fallen asleep, were now shoved down and tangled around his thighs, and his breathing came deep and rough, his heart pounding inside the secret fastness of his chest.

And his penis, which had obeyed his resolute will for so many years, was standing defiantly stiff and sweetly aching inside his crisp-pressed pajama bottoms.

Because of her. The Wiccan woman sleeping in the room’s other narrow twin bed, her own breathing soft and serene in the depths of the night.

His enemy. His ally in their shared mission, however hated. And as his blood coursed hotly through his entire body, throbbing hard in the most sinful part of him, the rush of horrible memories nearly choked him: university, another bed with disarrayed sheets, another woman with tousled dark hair and shameless sensuality… and the shame, the betrayal of all his most deeply held moral convictions, for a brief space of gasping minutes and a single blaze of carnal pleasure.

And she had told everybody afterwards, anybody who would listen, that the “good Southern Baptist boy” was just as much a slave to his passions as any other man she’d lured between her sinful, glorious thighs. That he had been her toy. That he had failed every moral precept he’d ever stood for.

Jeremy closed his eyes again, hard, and denied the sting of miserable tears with all his well-honed willpower. They slipped free anyway.

Power… discipline… that was the essence of who he was, and the essential nature of the God he honoured, the God from Whom his Manifester powers flowed. For one wild instant he considered slipping out of the motel room with his phone to call his Mother — but what could he possibly tell her? He hadn’t told her about his horrible moral failure with Vanessa Vann in the first place, all those years ago, and the last thing he was up to right now was explaining such a thing to a woman who had no idea that he was capable of such a gross transgression of the rules of his faith.

He did push the covers off, and sit up, and swing his legs over the edge of the hard motel mattress — but it wasn’t to rise, but rather to abase himself before the only One who knew the full dark depths of his failure, and the true sincerity of his repentance. He sank to his knees beside the bed, and rested his elbows on the mattress edge, and clasped his hands before his bowed forehead, and he whispered as softly as the flow of his burning tears down his cheeks:

“Our Father, Who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name…”

Tatiana Kavelin’s breath hitched. She shifted restlessly, then turned her back to him and settled again.

“Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven…”

Of course she would be uneasy: even in her sleep, surely, she could hear the holy words, and demon-worshipper that she was, they must cause her pain. Jeremy felt a fleeting stab of fierce exultation at this effect of the ineffable power of the true Lord of the Universe.

“Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses…”

Vanessa. Her full breasts and shameless mouth and the enticing wetness between her —

No. He was forgiven. He was a Manifester, and what greater evidence that God loved him dearly, than the powers which were his to wield?

“As we forgive those who trespass against us…”

But in his heart he would never forgive. Vanessa had laid a stain upon his soul which he could never scrub clean. Yet he was a Manifester still — so surely his inability to forgive was also allowed?

“And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil…”

This was a surer road, a path Jeremy knew well. Since Vanessa he had been ruthless in policing himself. His flesh had obeyed his will — and even now he could feel the blood ebbing from his most secret parts, drawn back into his body and his control by the power of his ferocious righteousness.

“For Thine is the Kingdom, and the power, and the glory…”

No more tears flowed. A coolness came over him, as refreshing as rain after a parching drought.

“Forever and ever… Amen.”

Jeremy opened his eyes. The darkness held no terrors for him now — either the shadows without, or the bruise of his own sin within.

He got back into bed and drew the blankets round his shoulders again, and was asleep almost as soon as he closed his eyes, secure in the protection of his God. For what, in truth, could harm a Warrior of the Supreme Lord?

Surely not something as ephemeral as a memory in the night.